Let's keep a diary for my Englsih.

For what do I have to study again at this age?

Not to get my heart older anymore, to get a nice job in future and earn some money for my baby, to improve my freaking English to get rid of stuffiness, and Studing is easier than parenting.

Anyway Improvement of English will help me to live a better life. Moreover, working on study in these days, I can see some nice guys through the chatting that gives a sort of energy to me in lethargy and fatigue(which must be the reason why I can't write down many stories and issues).

Frankly, I am not so smart one, and it is not easy to study something, besides, it is getting worse.

My brain has been almost empty since I was married. As time goes by I get foolish.  I don't think it is a problem of knowledge.

It is vital not only to be good at English but also to cure my heart, to excite and stimulate it.

I feel I am losing my heart. I have no guts to say that It doesn't matter if my baby is taking my things from me. It is not Okay.

Seriously I should make efforts into this study.