Fall is all around. Well, it’s actually almost winter now but the scenary I’m watching out the window is full of fall. Yellow, red, and brown leaves are waiting to fall to the ground. It’s a beautiful scenary and I’m enjoying it with a cup of tea.

I’ve just kept thinking about all the mistakes I made yesterday. It’s really irritating that I can’t really get out of those regrets. I hate it when I do this but it’s just me.. I can’t help it. My hubby is like, regret as much as you can until you get sick and bored with it... yeah. That may be what I really need to do.

I became pregnant unexpectedly. I’m in no way saying that I am not happy with my pregnancy, but I’m just saying I haven’t really been able to concentrate on my work as much as I did when I was not pregnant. And what’s more disturbing me is this thought, what if I cannot get into the graduate school and just end up as a housewife? It was such an audacious decision in my life to quit my job. And I studied for one whole year to get into this school. I don’t want my child to grow up under a depressed mom.

So I say a prayer to God, please give me a chance, not a chance to get this thing for free but a chance to focus my attention soley on studying so that I can be prepared better.

So let’s just get back to work. The best way to relieve stress from studying may be just to keep studying.

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